Wanna live simply and spend my tommorow more freely

Hindustan CRAZZZEEEE

2011-04-10T19:25:00.004+08:00

Its damn random.

But i just recalled

how crazy I can get when it comes to hindustan moviessss~!

Hahaha, okay i'm not that mad about it.

Its just that i like some of their songs

and their storyline

and i find some of their actresses really pweeeetyyyyyyy~!

This one's one of my all time favourite

Then we have Mohabbatein next on the list...

How can someone resist such a beautiful love story!!

Okay lah, not so beautiful.. but quite the touching.

Some of my favourite actresses...

1) Aishwarya .... Aww, just look at her. Gorgeous or what.

2) Preity Zinta... I LOVE her energy level and great smile!

3) This one's nothing to do with hindustan. But I like her as well. Catherine Zeta Jones!

4) Last but not least, Lisa Surihani, Malaysian Actress.

She's beautiful, and i love how she has that fierce-yet-pretty factor.

Okay. Gotta get back to work. Exams in two weeks. Ugh.

Bye!

Beautiful cooling Saturday!!

2011-04-09T19:16:00.005+08:00

I'm really tired of Business Computing (BC).

I don't understand how to relate one thing to another.

I'm so confused.

I go google, and i become even more confused.

I stare at the screen.. I stare somemore... Somemore...

But nothing goes in... Wahhhhhhh!

But i'll not give up. Cia yo!!

Haiyohhh but my bibik wants me to watch Kurafat movie with her later lehhh

Behhhhhhhhhhh....

Anyway, I'll take this opportunity to take a break from BC... XD

Here are some photos i just remembered i have:

My cute-cute Ilhan who goes around and destroy everything in his way.

And this is my ultraawesomepluscool bibik Yanti.

Well, he's a kawaii +naughty kid.

So i always take any opportunity i get to bully him.

In this case, i tied him with his bathing towel so he cant move.

Simple :D

Luckily i dun have any cats.. If not, hehehehe... ehem. Next. My OB group leader and Hui Ning. Pretty, small, yet scary lady But she's one really great friend+ teammate that you could ever get :)

We were at Sentosa. At OneDegree15 Marina Club .

Rich, rich people. It's a great place and we went there for our group discussion. We had our discussion in the Chart Room. See lah, Jasper cannot use my camera properly then start blaming it. Tsk.

He tried to camwhore but failed badly. So i helped him. And here'ssssss Jassy!!

The founder of Cute-cute club! hahaha

Alright, enough of OB stuff.

These pictures were taken when we went Johor to eat bubor.

At my favourtite place. Its also called Sentosa. But its in Msia. Known as Taman Sentosa.

I drank Hot rose syrup and the whole gang laughed at me. Not normal mehh :/

My aunt and uncle (right-hand side) drove us there.

They are the ones who pamper as well as bully me like crazy :)

Back at home, under the block:

I played badminton yesterday and now my body hurts like hell lor.

Aite, gtg. Kurafat time. Ciow!

Please grant me patience Allah. Amin.

2011-04-05T22:46:00.002+08:00

Its you.

2011-04-03T10:53:00.002+08:00

Each time we meet
I learn a little bit more about you.
It makes me wanna see u more often,
listen to your thoughts,
emotions...
everything.

May Allah guide my feelings..
And show me what i ought to do.

Bruises

2011-03-30T13:39:00.003+08:00

I tried to do handstands for you.
But everytime i fall for you.
I'm permanently black and blue.
Permanently blue for you.

I've got bruises on my knees for you.
and got grass stains on my knees for you.
Got holes in my new jeans for you.
Got pink and black and blue
for you.

I hope that day will come
where i''ll think back about this
and laugh at myself :)

Baek.. Claps Ain's style

2010-09-26T17:38:00.006+08:00

This is one of my favourite songs.
My bro introduced it to us when i was in primary school.
I forgot about it.
But then, i watched glee
and heard the mashup between this song and Confession
And i LOVED it! =)

It's my Life by Bon Jovi

This ain't a song for the brokenhearted
No silent prayer for the faith departed
And I ain't gonna be just a face in the crowd
You're gonna hear my voice when I shout it out loud

It's my life
It's now or never
I ain't gonna live forever
I just wanna live while I'm alive
My heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said, "I did it my way"
I just wanna live while I'm alive
'Cause it's my life

This is for the ones who stood their ground
For Tommy and Gina who never backed down
Tomorrow's getting harder, make no mistake
Luck ain't even lucky, gotta make your own breaks

Chorus

You better stand tall
When they're calling you out
Don't bend, don't break Baby, don't back down

It's my life
It's now or never
I ain't gonna live forever
I just wanna live while I'm alive
My heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said, "I did it my way"
I just wanna live while I'm alive
'Cause it's my life

Its now or never, coz I ain't gonna live forever

2010-09-26T16:51:00.003+08:00

Allah has definitely answered my prayers.
I know where I'm going now.
I know what i want for now.
I mean... Not about what I wanna work as or what.
But at least,
I see a glimpse of light
in this whole dark room.

So for now,
I'm gonna take one day at a time.
Enjoy whatever's there.
Coz the real game's about to start soon.
And once it begins,
I'm gonna make sure its worth every minute.
Let there be pain, Let there be tears.

For those who's pulled me down,
for those who has pushed my big ass to urge me to keep moving,
to those whom I dissapoint countless times,
to those who watched me cry like a baby, laugh like a lunatic,
and scold like a mad woman,

I can't promise I can make everyone happy.
I can't promise I'd not fail again.
In fact I look forward to almost anything now; happy, bitter, or sad.
But at the moment,
watch me,
and pray for my success.

Well.... thats it for seff-motivating speech.
Muahaha.. my house is like a hamster's house rite now
messy and cozy. loving it.

I watched this video and I thought it was sweet.

At the moment though,
i knw this sounds silly.
And there'll be people out there saying things like
"hmph, bagus pon kau tau."*Muke mcm ayam berak kapor with the 'padan muke' expression*.
Haha, whatever.
But seriously,
I can't comprehend love yet.
Between man and woman.

For now,
I'm just trying to comprehend my (hopefully)new modules and all that.
Nyehehe

And I miss those three maniacs.

What am i doing....

2010-09-21T04:12:00.003+08:00

Its 5 am in the morning
And i'm awake.
Im barely awake...

I wanna sleep.
But im scared that if i sleep,
i wunt be able to do something i intend to
in the morning.
I was deciding on whether to sleep or not
when I came across You're Beautiful.
and i thought, well, it wouldnt hurt to watch it twice.
So i watched the last 2 episodes again.

Lepas tu continue lagi...
tengok video2 ni yg takde mendatangkan ape2 hasil..
dah buang tebiat agaknye aku nie..
besok aku jadi zombie lah nampaknye.

Well, for this one.. I thought her lipgloss was... Cool...
Anw, is it lipstick or lipgloss eh?
I think its a combi.
Haha, I've no idea.

And this one, its involving Park Shin hye and this famous male actor in Korea.
i forgot his name.
I watched how they made this CF
and I think the results were quite good.
I wouldnt mind having this as a tv commercial on Suria or Channel5.
I think its partly because of their smiles.

This one's Tae yung's.
He's a member of BigBang.
When I watched this vid,
I wasnt even listening to the music.
his moves were damn distracting
.. and smooth.

Then i got real bored and I watched other random videos.
And i thought that I could definitely relate to this one.

God,
please show me the right way for this Uni thingy.

Ciow.

Let go.

2010-09-14T19:48:00.002+08:00

Sedih.
Geram.
Pasrah.
Haha, melayu sejati kape bobal gini macam...

It must have been hard for you
especially for this past year
It also taught me not to take you for granted
each moment spent together
there's nothing more special and worth it than that

But sometimes
for now
although life has been hard for you
I just wish you'd release me
from this painful leash that u've placed on me.

I feel like a reporter.
Come on, give me a break.

And yet, when i think.. what if you're not here to do this anymore,
what wld i feel...
I feel so confused.
That i keep wanting to tear,
but end up acting like nothing happened.

Its true, I could never hope.
People after people dissapoint me.

And now my heart is breaking,
but I just get up and walk along like nothing happened.

Tell me its worthiness.
Please.
Please give me a chance Allah.

Another day went by

2010-09-04T23:33:00.005+08:00

Today,
I couldn't stop myself.
From getting upset.
Its like truly... I wonder... How Jan Di did it..
Smiling her way through.. Through hard times...

It really sucks
when people dictate your life.
When people dun appreciate whatever youve done
because of 1 mistake or another.
Of course, you have to define what mistake it is.
Big or small.
But still, your reaction is way too bizarre.

And when i think of them,
thinking of how selfish people can get,
i really cant push myself up.

Blughhhhh, OKAY,
enuf of sad time.
So mundane. Huhu.
Ahhh, why cannot go to Mysoju.com
its been a few days sia....

Anw,
I was telling my bro,
we should totally watch this!!!

Its interesting to see a different point of view, in terms of Vampires
Although it can be quite idiotic and lame
But.... I like that =D

And I was surfing thru Youtube when i came across this: Lee Min Ho!

Then I was looking through Big Bang's Vids.. Came across this old one

The look on TOP's face. haha

Wokayss, i wanna finish reading The Lost Symbol.
Cant waito know the ending!

It's been sometime

2010-09-04T02:27:00.000+08:00

Working, definitely opened up my eyes, to things.
Things that I perhaps, unconsciously ran away from.

Promises beautify your resume.
Determination gets you in.
But over time, the truth sinks in.
And by then, on which side will u be?

Proving to your parents.
Proving to people around you.
And most importantly,
proving to yourself.
Definitely ain't easy.
Haha, study hard they said.
Bitter truth, bitter heart.. Tsk tsk. Sucks.

Pardon my bad english.
It looks to me, like i've lost my momentum.
Try to gain it back.
Gosh...

Raya dah dekat.
Miss my family.

Hari ni, pelik ah.
Memang tak patut kita merajuk sgt..
Membawa diri pun ada padahnya...
Tapi aku rase, kadang kala.. dalam situasi begini...
Susah kalau aku tak bertindak.
Macam mane.
Bila kita mengharap,
harapan kita hancur musnah begitu sahaja.
Namun, peluang yang ada kini, begitu terhad.

Merantau merantau, bila aku nak merantau?

okay okay... Dah banyak sgt bebual aneh2.
Lagu ni name die Bonamana by Super Junior.
Its been released quite some time already.
But yesterday was the 1st time i watch the vid.
Cute pulak si gedempol dlm clip ni.
Its like korean+india song lor... Geli hati seh tengok =)

Alrite, dah malam.
The OMG song by usher is really making me dizzy.
Good nite and Salamat Berbuka.

Mane anak2 aku nie...

2010-06-08T19:18:00.000+08:00

Haaaaaaiiiiiiiii to all.

I miss my girls
I just met two of the kambengs.
One more sesat.
But still, I miss them.

These are some photos
of us.
We're usually up to something stupid.
But well, it turns out to be really fun in the end.
Sometimes, emotional.
But there's never a dull day with them =)

1) Surprising Ain at her workplace

2) Sending Arif Off to Bali.

3) Mas, Ain, Anisah adventure outing.

4) Lovely Ain's Bday

5) HamSem Arif's bday

6) Lepak-king at Ain's house

7) Beach outing with KW

8) Prata King Food and L4D

9) Sending Ain off.. The Dubai Girl

Girls.
Mas.
Ain.
Sarah.
Love you Three.

I was once there for ...

2010-05-29T18:23:00.000+08:00

How i wish
i didnt see you

How i wish
You didnt recognize me

Its all for one reason

A reason you can never understand

Coz each time i see you
History comes back to life
I'm haunted by my own mistake
A mistake i can never get over with
A mistake that i think you yourself are unwilling to forget

How i wish i can stay by your side and take care of you
How i wish to be there for you when your world's upside down

How i wish i can help ease your pain
and see you smile
A real smile...
not that superficial one you've always put on..
just to make others happy
They may be happy, but i'm not.

How i wish i can show you
how much of a blessing your presence is to others & me.
And give you what you deserve and more.
You may not see it.
But I definitely do.

There was once i didn't wanna see you at all.
I ran away.
Forgetting all those times you stood by me,
taken care of me..
I didnt even get to know the real you.
Now, Ive regretted it so bad.
I was just hoping for another chance,
but i know i don't deserve it.
And all my wishes, will just be wishes.
Its good you pushed me away.

But thank God.
You've moved on.
You've grown to be someone.
And I'm really proud of you.

Even though i don't talk abt you anymore..
Even though i've never been able to see you..
You will always be in my mind and heart.

Maybe that few seconds of eye contact was quite meaningful after all.
Thks Allah.

Maybe
just maybe...
I'll be able to talk to you again..
See you again..
The future's uncertain.
But is it wrong if i have even a little bit of hope?

Whatever it is,
I'll always pray for your well being

Take care
I'll always miss you,
that cute, chubby, bespectacled boy i've always known.

Terbang lah bersama ku

2010-05-16T23:31:00.000+08:00

I owe no one any explanation.
Regarding this, I speak no lies.
Feel no guilt, and have no confessions.
Coz you cant see thru my eyes.

All i know i was leaving.
But you kept coming back into my life.

Life goes on, and we have to move on.

With every step i take,
with every move i make,
I thank God for letting me meet you.

And thank you
for letting me move on =)

For now, i got quite a few things on my mind.

Firstly,
Secondly,
Thirdly, BBQ.
Fourthly, Sch.
.....
...
..

On and on....
So you know what?

err, i also donno.
Im just too full now too think.
And im damn tired.
Coz yest i slept over at Kak d's house
and it was sooooo awesome!!!

....
ok.
back to sleepy mood.
Im gona sleep people.
But before that....

EUN YUN HYE's so coool!

@_@ ...... ^_^
She never fail to daze me.
Okay, night!

Sorry

2010-04-06T08:59:00.000+08:00

Sorry for dissapointing you.
Sorry if i had spent so much money
whereas you do your best to save it up.

Sorry i'm not there by your side
but was outside with my friends.

I know friends are important,
but you're an even bigger part of my life
that i can't live without.

Sorry for not staying at home
and looking after adek.

Sorry for coming back so late and made you worry.

I really am sorry.

I didnt regret any of the time spent with them.
I loved it. And it was great.

But I'll make a few changes.
I'll put in more effort.
Promise.

I miss you.

I'm really sorry.

Mum, Dad.

2010-04-03T22:50:00.000+08:00

I'm watching tv.
Something i rarely do.
While waiting for sister.
We can't decide whether to go to play L4D.

I went to work.
To the airport.
I got to enjoy the bus ride.
Just some alone time.
Lot's of things on my mind.
I can't sort it out.
I can't stop it.
Well oh well,
just let the thoughts flow.

Yesterday i tried to sleep.
I did.
But I woke up at 3am.
Slept again.
And woke up again.
What's happening...
Slept again.
And woke up just in time for work.

Why...
I miss dad.
I miss mum.
Well yeah, she screamed at me.
But i'm still grateful for the hug i get at the end of the day.

Each time i see you,
i feel happy.
Real happy.
But things can get complicated,
don't you think so.

I don't want history to repeat.

Pain..
It has a two way effect.
Become weaker.
Or become stronger.
Ive to choose.

Hahakz.
I gotta stop babbling man.
Good night..

Happy Bday Ariffy Bro

2010-02-18T10:01:00.000+08:00

It was last saturday
that we celebrated Arif's bdae
After work,
i rushed home,
accidentally took a 15 mins nap
and head off to Ains hse
Of coz i bath first lahh
Slowly,bit by bit
the events began to unfold according to plan

Ariff Rizwan doing last minit shopping with Sarangz.

Bla, bla, bla.. 7pm came, Arif pon datang.

Our ... err... Penyambut... The ones that received Arif and Mas.. Were these three

Haiz... Sarah2....
Birthday boy =)

Oh ya, forgot to say.
The 'party' had a sports theme.
Mas mati2 nak gitu.
So well, we tried to selitkan unsur2 sports.
For example, i was supposed to be a badminton player.
So i wore my jersey.
Was suppose to wear my shorts,
but im more comfy in jeans.
So... that explains the way i dress.

Sarah = swimmer
Ain = Cheerleader
Ariff = Track star
Hafizan = Tennis player
Mas = Jogger??? TAK MENJADI AHH BABE. MUAHAHA!

Haha, actually, most of us failed to look it.
Coz Ain, for example, lost her skirt.
Hafizan dun wana wear shorts (like me lor)
But whatever
we're still cool.
*arms crossed, kening angkat tinggi2*

Whats with the slippers sak sarah..
Swimmer kalau bwk terompah mcm gitu confirm tenggelam tau.

Hek eleh.. Mas senyum, step manis benar.

Time to open da gifts!

We couldnt light the candles up.
Coz too windy.
Siang2 kite dah warning.
Org tu degil jugak.
Jitak jugak kepale kau mas.
Takpe, it still looks gd.

Mine to him.
Sarang to him.
Ariff' to him.
Mas to him. Belambak. Never ending presents.

Happy nampak BOY??

After all da eating
(great food cooked and sponsored by Mas Rafidah Co. Pte. Ltd.)
Time to just sit
lepak
and talk.
And talk.
Deep thoughts.

Overall
I had a real great time
with all my very good frens
people whom i wana stay with till the very end
People whom i really care abt.
People whom i'd do anything for them.

Arif, Im glad ure back.

Mas, u did a wonderful job.

Ariff, Hafizan, we're gonna party like this again real soon *wink wink*

Sarah, Ain...
Pi mati ah.

It ain't easy you know

2010-02-09T00:18:00.000+08:00

You walked past.
I just couldn't help but look.

See.
Observe.

Damn.

I dun wish to be them.
Those girls.
Its just that
at times,
i just wish... i know what to say
becoz whateve i want to spit out
just wun come out

My heartbeat.
Crazy sia.
My brain.
Totally blank.
Panic.
Confused.
Blush.
BLUSH.

what??

What to do?

Hakz.

I know the answer.

I can do nothing.

Maybe one day will come,
when i look at you,
smile,
and see you smiling back,
and my heart just burst of joy,
and i'd express it thru my words,
and just say whats on my mind..

Its such a dilema.
It really is.
Kinda painful too.

Sigh.

We're just too different aren't we.
Different worlds.
Different ways.
Just.... different.

We're too different aren't we

2010-02-01T22:24:00.000+08:00

It was just another lazy afternoon.
Was smiling lazyly as always.
Coz only God knows, whats in my mind..

Recalling back the encounters
Over and over..
thinking abt what it signifies..
But there is always a blank at the end of each answer.
I look as contented as this dog:
I got up.
I walked.
One step.
Two step.

But then,
i felt like looking up.
And then i saw.

Of course,
i didnt look that shocked.
I was very surprised.
Very.
And also, pleased.
Happy.
Grateful.
Even if its just for a while.

However
You're a favourite here.
Everyone knows u.
Everyone wants u.
But what more important,
is that i'm just a face amongst that crowd.

Of course,
dissapointment sinks in.
Coz reality at times,
are nothing,
but bitter medicines
that u've got no choice but swallow.
Deep, deep into ur throat.
No bruise, no cut.
Nothing to show it.
But u feel it.
Running down.
And spread through ur body.
Pain.

I dun wana be a statue.
I dun wana pretend.
So my legs carried me.
Moved me further away.
So that maybe,
at least maybe,
i wun feel too dissapointed.
Shy.To reach out that hand.

All i could do,
was just watch.
As if i'm in a dream.

I've to move ahead.
I can't sit and wait.
But for now..
Just let me watch.
Let me see.
Let me understand.

So again.
The cycle repeats.
And you'll see me..
Smiling.. again...

All these words doesnt make sense?

Perfect.

Dono why.
But hopes keep coming.
And i keep wanting.

Can't believe that its a countdown.

how well do u hide it

2010-01-31T11:48:00.000+08:00

Its been some time.
I'm now working here:

You can find me at the entrance.
Smiling like an idiot.
Sometimes, it gets really tiring.
But i tell myself, its better than having a blank face
or worse,
frowning...
I dun wanna get wrinkles.
Yet.
And moreover,
senyum itu sedekah.
Heh.

Working's different.
Not really fun.
But its endurable.
Coz i like doing what im doing.
& at least i'm not wasting time.

For now, im like this:
Its been 4 days already.
And today's the worst
coz this time,
i can't communicate.
At all.
My voice didnt come out at all.
And tmr im working.
How the hell am i suppose to work as a guest relation officer
when i can even talk to them?
sigh.... i better get well by tmr.

And yesterday,
i was like this:

Coz some people
are already talking behind my back.
Feels shitty,
when u get that
from the people that u were starting to trust a little.

But well, im learning to ignore it.
And be patient.
Just like this bear:

Coz i still need the guidance babehh.
So, ckp lah ape kau nak.
Ultimately, u can't please everyone.

Im missing my girls.
Wishing i could hang out with them.
Just like the old days...
Heh. Nvr mind. we will soon.

I'm now learning to not be too caught up in such shits.
And to just smile my way through
Tak baik berdendam or what.
Allah will protect me.
Sooo..... i just gotta learn to smile...

And be contented with what i have (alhamdulilah) ...

And just be the same old happy nisa.

Its true
I find it hard to trust.
Its true
I keep denying myself of hope at times.

Give me time.
To break this wall aite.

Okay... im gonna prepare my tuition materials now..
And after this, go CP.
Nenek want to buy getah rambut (she say hers keep snapping).
And i wanna read Fruits Basket again.

Gtg. Panadol, cough syrup and phlegm pills
can really make one dizzy huh.
Take care people =)

What is it that you're waiting for?

2010-01-11T01:00:00.000+08:00

Kau bikin aku bosan

2010-01-06T12:02:00.000+08:00

HEHEHEHEHE.
My lovely keparats would understd y im so happy these days.
Coz its just awesome!!!
If only im bloody RICH
id get it done asap siaaaaa

BUT
im grateful for having wateve i have now
BECAUSE
it makes this whole thing
even more precious
it makes it soo special
it makes it sooo AWWW0-SeMMM!

Hehe.
So ain, mas like i said.
it'll be a surprise kay.

Cute kan gambar nie?
Found it when i was browsing thru the net.

Anw
Life's been great these few days
Job-searching is damn hard
and is irritating the crap out of me.

As my friends wld noe,
im a person who wld cry when sumting hurtful happens
i'll be like the bloody crybaby for a minit or 2
at times it'd takes hrs..
right after that, i'd be smiling again
and moving on, doing my best to put it behind me
no matter how tuff, no matter how complicated.

Ive faced it. Ive felt it. Ive done it.

So when i read the msg again..
I couldnt help but smile.

According to it.. I have no idea of what its like
to be in love...
to be betrayed by ur loved one..
someone i gave my heart and soul to..
to go crazy when i didnt talk to the person..
to always be in pain wheneve i close my eyes
coz i'd imagine them both togther...
for the other party to know me in-out
but as for me.. zero-information...

I dont know these things huh... Hakz..
Ok, one thing i agree abt is maybe i dont know whats love yet.
i wldnt be so sure abt that.

One thing ive learned about life is that
Never, Never should you regret.
Nabi kita tak mengajar kita utk berkelakuan sedemikian.

Also, ive learned that
kalau api kemarahan dan dendam tak membakar musuh,
maka yang akan terbakar adalah diri kita sendiri.

I cant say that i know every single pain
that you went thru
coz everyone's different
experiences also different lah kan

I was once there
facing the same dilemma
as you.

It was having one person
u really loved
u really cared for.
U'd do anything for him
He was... simply..lost.
He didnt noe what he wanted.
Or needed.
He needed me. Thats what he said.
Thats what im told, by people all ard me.
Our teacher said,
"Nisa. show him the right way. Dun let him go back there"
His friends said,
"He's hurt nisa. He's a gd guy. So pls take care of him"
His parents said,
"Nisa, galakkan die belajar. Tolong cik nisa. Ngan org laen die tak nk dgr".

At times, im just scared.
Coz its just too much
what if i cant do much.
im just a human after all.

But a day came..
When he just left...
With no words.. nothing..
Its just a simple "im sorry"
"U'll find someone better".
Without meeting.
Without reasoning.
Nothing.

At that time also,
no friends... I had none.
Coz ive done many mistakes,
n it took them a few days b4 theyd forgive me.
and even so, most of the time, i didnt belong to their world.
So i was.. alone.

To move on,
without any help,
without any hopes to hold on to,
was tuff for me.
I was living,
but inside i was dying.
I couldnt reach out to anyone.

Worst still,
we'd still see each other during lessons.
But nothing can be said.

2 weeks later,
saw him flirting.
and a few days later,
they got togther.
And me.. I was the last to know
they didnt wana hurt me.

The following day,
when i met the girl
she said "do u know y he broke up with u"
"he said he has no feelings for u"

i didnt know that.
Everyone knew this already, it seems.
So he cldnt approach me,
to tell me what it was all abt,
but i just had to hear it frm his new girlfren.
Later, the girl confessed
to the whole team
she's togther with him,
just for the sake of getting back at her ex,
who left her.

Not only was i surprised by how things turned out,
but also i finally got the reason
of why we went seperate ways.
It was very diffcult to accept
becoz not too long ago,
he'd always hold on to my hand
sometimes crying,
saying "you wun leave me will u?"
But one day, i was left.

Betrayed. By my own friend. By my own love.

I didnt meet him anymore.
I culdnt talk to him anymore.
But his mum... Really liked me.
So i visited her regularly,
just to see if she's doing fine.
But each time i stepped into the house,
tell me.. what am i suppose to feel..?
all those moments and time spent togther.
Everytime.. this happens...
Every visit.. wld coz me to break down.

Everyday went by..
But i still believed in him.
I knew he had potential,
coz he had such a kind soul,
that many people had taken advantage of.
and being young and reckless,
desicions were made based on emotions
so basically, he can be stupid.

I tot he'd change.

I waited.
It went on.. for 8 mths..
just hoping and hoping..
in these 8 mths,
i heard many things..
that he'd regret.
That he's just getting worst than b4.
He started taking illegal stuff.

One day came, and i finally decided to move one.
And till now, ive ever regretted it.
Im really happy i did.
Im really happy, each time he reach out to me
i cld push it away
for the basic reason of, i want him to learn a lesson
so that he wun do the same for other girls

So i didnt write all these shit for nothing
i dont wanna boast bout my life
coz compared to others,
my experience is very insignificant
and is almost close to nothing
Of coz, no one wld understd the pain i went thru
I dun blame them.

Basically, i did feel betrayal.
I did feel what it was like to lose someone.
and that someone later chose a girl,
whom only God knows how she lived her life.
I know what its like, how crazy it gets,
not to get to talk to the person..I did so for mths
I slept everyday, crying, thinking of him with her,
of how he left,
and wake up frm nightmares abt him.. almost everyday.
To still see the girl now, regularly,
and she still have the same attitude of wanting to beat me...
again...

Life's not simple.
It definitely is not.
But everyone can control it.
Maybe not ur destiny.
Maybe not the events.
But at least, one thing others cant control
that i can...
its my mind.
My thinking. My thoughts.

Its stupid to waste my energy on such a negative thing,
coz when i do that
i'll forget bout those ard me
my parents
my frens
my family

I felt wat it was like,
almost having to lose my dad to cancer
thats one of my wake-up calls
i saw him fighting
so hard against it
living each day in a room
so many things injected into him
not able to move
losing hair, appetite...
Life sucked for him then
but why didnt he give up
and yet u people out there think of DYING??

U may not be planning to kill urself
but ur actions now.. it certainly shows u dun care bout ur body
it certainly shows u dun care abt ur family
ure friends...
coz they'd definitely get hurt if u left them
and what u really wanted was just one love frm him
u wld actually leave everything behing just for a love
that u aint sure if itll be there or not?
U sure arent doing anything abt ur situation now,
and also.. u sure are being selfish.

Im not trying to preach
or talk like i know everything
i seriously dont
Im just saying life's more worth it than that
and that ive chosen to go
becoz i just cant think the same way as you do
and ive chosen this path
becoz i wana live my life,
unlike u.

I hope u know how much i care abt u..
im sure that person noe who u are.
Whateve i told u, i swear its true.
i really hope u wld never accuse me that way again

Jangan kerana lelaki,
kita perempuan berpecah.

LOVE MAS, AIN, SARAH<3

Aite. gtg.

Wei, Wo, Wangg!!!

2009-12-25T00:59:00.000+08:00

Dun mind the title
I dun really have anything great in mind for one.

Aniwayyyyyyy
I slept soooo much today
that i cant sleep now
so thats why im here now
typing, typing away...Zzzzzz....

Yesterday yesterday,
i went out with Maksu n my siblings
we went to my fav SEOUL GARDEN
haha, dunno why, just like to eat the chicken dere
then went swimming

overall
it was a great day out with my fam
not becoz we spent money or what
its just... me being me when im with them
i really enjoy their company
watching everyone opening up
talking bout life and joke abt the past...
it was really great
thks maksu,
ure the one that made this possible =)

And for now..
I miss my girls
One at US
One at Melaka
One at bukit batok
(Well, that one pretty useless lah. always stay at home. haha)

Great times spent together!!!

Just now i was looking thru some photos at FB
Then i picked out the significant ones
Ill explain why..

This photo was taken on my Bdae.
The day b4 i was darn miserable becoz i was worried abt the guy n gurl
i remembered crying so badly that day
until i slept
the next morn i woke up to an sms
which made me smile
but when i went to sch i was still tired
& not really bothered that its my bdae
However, that day was great
Presents.. Surprise class.. Seoul Garden (again.haha).. Keppel Bay..
I didnt noe that at the same time
while i was smiling happily, laughing, enjoying...
Someone out there...
another girl...
was crying becoz i 'took' her happiness
I didnt noe that at that time of coz..
not until recently
Things have been resolved of coz
Alhamdulilah.

2nd pic:
This was taken 1 day after my exams finished officially.
We were out having fun of coz.
it was my 1st time to Orchard by MRT.
During the whole week of exams,
i was in a terrible state mess..
stress n pressure.
Studies, Family issues, relationship.
It was tough... The toughest challenge ive faced so far in my life
but i survived.
for the whole week,
i just kept my tears.. Studied..Focused..
All the way, till this photo was taken
i tried to stay composed
but unfortunately
that night when i met sarah,
everything came out.
the pain was so bad..
All i could do it hold on to my chest..
Hoping that it'd just heal soon.
thank god, that night i had her and bobby.

3rd pic:
This photo taken during hari raya
Nothing much to say
but i remembered being really happy
becoz i was spending tyme with such a wonderful bunch
And it was also the day that he said he was tired
and i happened to be near his workplace
so i sneaked out of the house when no one's watching
of coz i informed sarah
then i went to surprise him.
Im glad i did, till today.
There's never a regret in whateve ive done,
coz i remember doing it for a gd reason =)

4th photo:

This photo reminds me of my 1st time into KW
it was scary coz i had to firstly train with KIDS
im like the bloody oldest lahhhh
but anw, i caught people's attention coz my kick was hard and loud. hehe.
Had fun at silat..Bla bla bla..
Then as time passes by, after going thru a tough period,
i remember having to question myself..
whats my true purpose to silat..
it was painful to go silat..
watching him with her..
being pushed to our physical limits at times
but most imptly,
i was being tested emotionally.
but thank god
i found my reason
and that is why im still with KW till today.
they make a difference to my life
its like having a 2nd family =)

6th pic:
Me and Sarah learning more abt each other
Our frenship was pretty new
this was our 1st trip outside togther
i really had fun
We went geylang, ate bubur at my fav,
brought her to Haw par Villa (shes nvr been there b4),
den we went mkn at Vivo.
This pic was taken on da bus,
on my way to silat.
Before going silat,
i hang out with Adam while he played sepak takraw with frens
haha, great day.

Okayyy, enough about my life.
Now about my fantasies..Mwhehehe.
one of mine now is of coz... TWILIGHT/NEW MOON!!!

I got my hands on twilight and i finished it in 2 days,
New moon in 2 days also,
and eclipse in 1.
Now i cant wait for Breaking dawn.
Gonna buy it soon with sis.

Its not really the romance that attracts me
it does ah.. becoz i really love Edward's gentlemen attitude
Bella reminds me that in life,
no matter what it is,
its best u stay as who u are,
coz ure most beautiful that way.

This picture..its the couple, Rosalie and Emmett

I think they're really cute lahhhh
Its like Emmett's big. He grins like a kid. At times, act like one too.
Playful, tough and fun. Awesome guy.
On the other hand, Rosalie...
So beautiful... Lady-like..
At times she's different.
for example, when she play baseball,
she'll play hard.. as hard as the boys.
And her strong character..Fuh... tak bleh angz.
And overall, whats the best part abt this pic
is the way emmett's looking at Ros.

This photo is of coz, Edward and Bella Swan.

Edward is really manly, and his gentlemen-ness,
can drive a girl mad.
Boys shld learn frm him.

His smile...haiyaaah... *faints*

Next up: Dear Jacob
Jake's got great bod. But he's immature.
Those who read the book shld get it.

And this one... ALICE!!!! My most favourite character.

Her personality... Awesome...
Ini sister..kalau bleh kwn ngan die..fuhh..

Last but not least, i love Bella's hair.

So thats all abt twilight.

Just now, i read some people's blogs.
im reminded of my past of course.
Things that ive done,
that has mended people's way of thinking
etc..
Whatever it is..
its all in the past.
Nabi has taught us not to regret.
We shld just learn and move on.

Pls dun say ure not good enough.
I made that desicion at that time,
because i was young and silly.
I still have got lots to learn.
I sure as hell look up to u now
Though u dont noe it
i dun think im even on ur mind at all
ure such a bz person
and i dun blame u
if u had chosen to not relate urself to me again
ive done damage.. only god knows how painful it must hav been
u said aint avoiding..
but its okay..i understd
but i do pray that one day, we'd meet again
and that maybe
we could build a stronger frenship this tyme =)

Alrite.. Gotta go now. Take care people

Thinking hard..

2009-12-19T15:35:00.000+08:00

Job's quite difficult to get.
more than i thought.
damn, even after all that effort.
it just wasnt enough.
But i wasnt gonna give up yet.
no, not now.

yesterday slept at the hosp
perhaps today i will too.
it does get tiring at times.
but im glad to chat with dad
see him so happy abt the home leave
he was counting down the hours happily.

though the Selengz is not there
such a dissapoinment
only my cool-big-guy-brother was.
and he was pestering me all the way
He said cheekily "ive got my eyes on you"
....
what the hell is that suppose to mean
haha, crazy man

im hungry
and im SICK of rice
or anything that reminds me of hospital food
will be dropping by at cosway to eat
before heading to the hosp again

Ciowz

Updates!

2009-12-09T21:57:00.000+08:00

Im not working now
Im not studying now
But im bloody hell bz
Most of the time i have something to do
becoz ive to
but at times, of coz lahh
i wana lepak and enjoy life. Hehe

Anw,
my plans changes frm day to day
but whats permanent is that i go hosp daily
coz i love hanging out with papa
n at times mama (when her PMS is down)
like today... She was the mummy that i yearned for so much today
really happy sia
anw, now my sis n i kebulur
we've got no idea what to do
coz i instructed her not to touch the dapor
i just cleaned it!
so while waiting for an idea to appear...
Blogging time!!

Pictures to pur trip tp Ariff's hse!
Sleepovaa and Sarahs bdae celebration/ barbeque =D

Err.. Ain ask me to senyum tak nampak gigi. Difficult sia
the pic turned out like me being the bapok siam

....And soon she tried it too.
Ariff picked us up
he drove us to his house
anddd... wala!
His bed

His small sister
and i LOVE the bear!!!!!
I kissed sarah coz i really syg this cute sister of mine.
But when she kissed me...

Err....malu!!! hahaha
Ariff was then suppose to distract Sarah n bring her to asap
while we prepare the barbeque
well..she dont noe a thing ah

When she got back...surprise! =)
Sarah's birthday /barbeque with a dress theme. Haha

Afte we makan until we cannot eat anymore.. We then went for a walk in the Taman
to the playground

Night time.. Time to sleep.
Before we slept, we watched he movie PapaDom.
Great movie. Den we slept.

The next day we went shopping centre..cinema...hang out..
Den maghrib, we went home sweet home =)

Another significant event was Ain's departure.
Ain was gonna leave to the States.
She's gonna blah by 7 am.
Me, mas and Sarah wanted to surprise her
so we came to the airport at 630am
well, thats the earliest we cld arrive there.
anw, mission accomplised, and we managed to see her off.

Bye Ain.
Miss u.
K lah. Tired.. and hungry..Ughh..Bye

Party partay everdayyyy

2009-11-22T16:27:00.000+08:00

Thursday, 19 November 2009

We celebrated BabyMok's birthday.

Happy Birthday Sarah
Ure really such a great fren n sister that i treasure
U were always there for me whenever im down
I know at times i treat u like shit!
Cant help it ahh.. hehe

Thank god, i met u
Coz u really made a difference in my life
in so many ways
I really hope to be there for u,
no matter what..

And yes,
i also don wan anything in return.
Its just really nice to watch u laugh, smile n cry
like Siow char boh.
Love u Sarah
Hope to be by ur side until we grow up,
become hot mamasitas,
n cool grannies like Aunt Kalasom

Papelahh do no wat to say animore
Coz ure that boring sarah.
Moving on...

Friday, 20/10/09

we sat for our last paper.
Dah habes, ape lagi...
Celebrate!!!!
First thing i did was to koyakkan entry proof.
Mwhehe

That day i go lepak with sarah, bobby n his frens
Den at nite go silat.
Fuhhhh...penat...until now my muscles's still aching!!
But when i go home,
i veri the happy la
Coz abah AT HOME!!
Yes, he's back.. For the weekend only though..
He's returning for another mth at the hosp on Mon.

Saturday, 21/09/09

Me, Mas, Ain go shopping at Orchard.
My 1st time taking MRT there to actually SHOP!
ya i noe..kental...hehe..tak minat ah shopping nie smue slame ni
But when i went, it was great lahhh
Cume ramai org =)

Preety ugly right there..
Then we go eat ayam penyek!!

Gua anak melayu, makan pakai tangan...
Ain, mentang2 nak g US..hmm....

O_o ... Muke mintak kene taplek seh ain..

Then i saw this cardigan shop.
.....
.... tak tau knape....
But I LOVE CARDIGANS!!!
Hahaha
Happy land sio =D

Lepak kejap with bubble tea in hand putside Lucky P.

Den i wanted go ain house to download n 'burn' cds for Bibik
Skali dah penat2 jln to ain hse
She just realised...she's got no key... =(
Takle masok sio...
Penat sgt terduduk pat lua
As shown by Mas:

In the end i had to go bobby hse at Lakeside
Met Sarah n Wani
Den went up his hse
They tricked me into sumting..
Taik seh perangai!!!
Ughh
Den i wen home along with Bobby
While Bobby teman me till CCK,
he said many things to me..
Thanks Bob!
Sampai uma kul 11..
Went home to complete sum stuff
slept at 2am =)

Sunday, 22/10/09

Bibik was gona go home
for 3 weeks
So we send her off to airport
me n 3 gurls naek mrt.
Pagi2 dah memekak...
But i slept in da train so hu cares..

After mkn, kene kacau, playing ard with Ilhan, bla3... Bibik went off.
I said bye2 to my fam then e four of us go enjoy at Popeye.
In da afternoon sarah gtg
so me ain n mas lepakking here
For now, im checking out my resume n some job application thingy
andddddd i look like this...

Haha, baru bangun tdo babe.
N im hungry sio.
Gotta go home soon
spend some time with mama abah
Peez out

Tanpa mu, ku TAK mati ah babe

2009-11-17T10:18:00.000+08:00

Haha..Mepek nah title blog nie..
Its actualli lyrics to the lagu "tanpa" or "Tanpa mu"..or wateve lah
But well, its not true lor...
U can live on even without someone..
Its abt believin in urself
Knowing tat there's so much more worth things
to look forward to in life...
Mampos...pagi2 je dah start membebel...

Anw, i got to know abt some shit yesterday
Yea..Its like the real SHIT
The kind yg meleleh-leleh, pekat ala kichap nye case..
Ughhhh..yeah...its bad...

Its the 2nd tyme
i meet this kinda shit

It hurts lahh of coz
im not gona lie
It made me cry
made me think a lot
made me reflect a lot

But its ok lah
Coz i didnt regret giving my love
If one chooses to abuse it..
ape nak buat kan..
Like Cikgu Ali says, tu die nye pasal lahhh

I didnt just lose a lover
i lost a friend

BUt its okay
becoz tuhan itu maha adil n bijaksana

n aniwae, i lost him.
But i got someone else in return.
Ling =)
So its ok
Whatever's done, is done.
The 2 of us gona help each other out
tu je.

Anddddd...
Great things is ive still got.....

1) Ain aka Sharon Auww
2) Sarah Gempz

3) and..... Mas SALAMAT
Err..sorry, tu kaki die..Ni orang die.
Haha..i still think her feet's better though.
Anw, life must go on... n i wun stop learning, falling, getting up..
Smiling, laughing, crying, getting mad, becoming silly, bully people...
I still wana have fun

and ive still got..my fam to rely on, no matter what.. =)

All these people...Matter a lot to me...
Im sorry, if ive done anything to hurt any of u...
I really love u from the bottom of my heart.
now i can really divert my attention to them...

Most importantly, ive got.... Me.
and me.
haha.

To that person... Pls dun do this to other people.
Ure a kind person deep inside.
Its not too late to start doing what is right.
The path's abt to get tough for u
becoz of what u have done.

To Ling, thank u..for giving me the courage.
I'll respect wateve ure desicion is.
Saaaaayang u gurrl. Hahaha
I dun care, u mix ard with me, we'll polish up ur malay skills kay

Peez out =)

What the hell....is going on baby..

2009-11-16T09:25:00.000+08:00

Yesterday
As i said the 'sort-of-goodbye'
Well...
waht do ya expect...
I was like this girl lor...
But no lahh
i wasnt bloody depressed.
like i want to kill a cat like dat (like sarah)
I was sad
Cried a bit...
Cldnt sleep well
Woke up really early with a headache
Haha..ape siot..ngah tdo pon otak aku maseh 'in operation'
MR. BRAINY, take a break kayy..Penat lah bnyk fikiran

Den today,
as i was bathing
i got the ilham
haha..ilham ke hape..
nah, i was just thinking abt the girl
Being a girl
Obviously id have at least some idea
of how bad things can be for her
But the thing is....
I really dun have much idea
of whats going on..
Everyone's hiding the truth..
so as to protect me??
Blurghh...ok2...i get it..but anw
i decided to find out

So i looked around for a bit
Then i decided
to meet her

Well, she agreed
We're meeting soon
Talk things out

But the thing is...
There are some things that she mentioned
that really made this big thing pop up in my mind:

And well, it has set me thinking...Like this ape:

hmmm....
What the hell sia...

So what am i feeling?

I donno.
Normal i guess.
coz i realised
the girl's feeling sad
he's feeling bad coz he has caused e misunderstanding
n well..lied a bit..hmmmph..

i feel their sadness
that at times it makes me so sad
so caught up in their dilema
....But i dun think thats good
fikir siket dah cukup ah...jgn lebih2..

So im alrite
Im a bit nervous
but other than that
im alrite
I know im gonna be okay la

What will happen, WILL happen.
So let it come
lets just face it =)

Happy Birthday Abah

2009-11-15T08:27:00.000+08:00

Semoga Panjang umur abah..
Today, we're going to hospital to celebrate
Wait hor Daddy =)

InsyAllah
We'll celebrate ure birthday next yr..
The year after..N so on...
Its a battle, that we'll go thru togther
Uve given us strength all these years..
This time, let us help u up

InsyAllah, we'll go Cameron togther again kay? =)

A beautiful lie

2009-11-06T11:06:00.000+08:00

Struggle..

Im struggling..

God, please help me.

Sarah. Ain. Mas.

Nadirah. Herda. Syak.

U guys held my hand, & walked me through this path

A path that will always be one of the highlights of my life.

Khai. Kak Melor. Kak Nana. Kak Su. Bibik.

Abg. Kak D.

I would'nt hav been able to make it

without ur guidance & motivation.

Abah, mama.

The strength that pushes me

keeping me going.

Mak Long. Mak Ngah. cik Wahid. Cik jajak. Cik ajis. pak busu.

All the help you gave to my family.

U shared the burden we felt.

There are many others who i didnt state their names.

But im equally grateful for being able to meet

such great and inspiring individuals

I love these people

I'd do anything for them

Im sorry

But please be by my side no matter what happens.

Coz for sure

I would always want to be by ures.

Im really panicking.

Coz 3 years

do matter a lot.

These 3 years.

Ive grown a lot.

I know bout the battles ive faced.

And im grateful

for everything

Every bitter parts

Every laughter n smile

Im gonna be alrite right?

Im gonna make it right..?

Dad's gonna be ok again rite?

He wun hate me if i dun make it rite..?

I'd do anything

to see him and my family togther

smiling

laughing

I dun want my A's to be the one

that pulls him down

Mum too.

Gsh. Pls stop these thoughts

Stop these fears.

Stop these tears.

Damn. its not just a game.

Think again.

2009-10-22T22:38:00.000+08:00

There's so much more to learn

So much more to give

So much more debates awaiting

So much more forgiving

So much... So much more..

Life itself, is a gift.

I learned that as i watch how Dad

struggle to take in every single breath.

Love

Is darn complicated.

It is the 'one' word that cld explain many things

But no one word can really define it.

Relationships

are about people,

forgiving one another

for each others mistakes.

Its not only about having similarities

with one another

The differences that each has

are also the real strength of the relationship.

No one knows what wld happen tmrw

One day, your loved one is smiling back at you.

Another day, he could just be gone.

Wake up.

Live every moment.

Don't take those who love you for granted.

Just because you think they're there

Doesnt guarantee that theyd be there

forever.

No matter what

U'd still have to put in effort

for sumting to work.

Think abt it.

Pls stop these foolish thoughts...

2009-10-17T18:49:00.000+08:00

Im not sure what to say
Its all stuck inside me
All these thoughts..
All these feelings...
At times it makes me feel so confused,
that the only thing i could do
was to just let the tears flow..
and then move on...
The only person i could tell this to is you..
But at times ure just not there...
And i dun blame u..
really i dun..
In fact, let it be...
This ought to be a lesson for me..

To my beloved Daddy

2009-10-12T17:39:00.000+08:00

Watching you crap dirty jokes with ure siblings
Learning from you how to prank on different kind of people
You prayed and doa.. no matter how tough things get
Showed me how to stand strong & protect your loved ones
The One that trusted me and stood by me

But now you're attached to the tube..
The needle..
It's gonna suck the 'life' out of you
in return of a 'better' one...

My aunts...My uncles...
Our sedare-mare...Friends...
Ive never seen such sadness before...
Happening right before me...

My family... Its such a great lesson for us
It just had to happen now...

But im thankful
things turned out this way
Im sure Allah knows better than us

Abah
I love you
Im sorry for being 'nakal'
i make u worry so much
we'll make it thru together
insyallah =)

As for me
So many things to juggle at once
They say its my fault
for letting 'distractions' come by...
They think that it will come and go...
Everyday, someone wld remind me...
Im grateful for such care n concern
truthfully...

Aku redha
I used to feel like giving up
and just follow their commands

But i realised
doing that, would be the greatest mistake
and i'd regret it my whole life

So ive made my desicion

Abah, mama...pls trust me
Ill show u that...
it's in a fact a form of strength
that pushes me even further

Its been so long...
Crying..
If only people knew...
how painful it was...
Nothing's wrong..Really. Just watch me lie.

I have to do this.
A-levels.
It's time.
enough is enough.
Im sick of all that. Sick.

Watch me.

Really grateful =)

2009-10-02T21:48:00.000+08:00

Having to choose

between 2

is never a position

that anyone wants to be in

thats why

i intended to walk away

I just want u to be happy

coz i really think

u deserve to be

Thank you...

I know it wasn't easy

U gathered all your courage

just to do it

U did really well

i'm really proud of u

Whatever it is..

Im here for u, udak buncit.

To my friends

Sarah

Ain

Mas

You guys are really such a sweetheart

Ive really made u guys worried these few days

im sorry for being this weak

but from now on

i promise to do my best k

thank u so much

and i love u guys frm the bottom of my heart.

Hearts.

To all, lets not give up now shall we?

HIdup ini banyak cabaran. Tu smorang tau. Tapi canne kau settle tu laen citer ah babe.

2009-09-27T16:59:00.000+08:00

Yozzy yoz

Today gerek manz

i purposely wake up late

at abt 930 like dat..

but i didnt sleep.

i just dgr lagu.

n i slept pat luar.

weirdo kape aku nie.

hekz.

Then at 10 talk to bucuk.

We went out for 'breakfast'

breakfast kape..

tengahari bute seh.

Then go play......my fav.....

Maen game nie ngan die bagus.

Coz i really learned a lot frm him.

Told my sista bout it

Den now we plan to go there soon

mungkin mlm nie..

ish, rabak per dua kali gi gaming.

haha.

To Hun,

thanks dear.

Lets work it out k?

2009-09-26T00:27:00.000+08:00

Haloooooooooo all the humans and aliens of da world!!

Its been a great week ever since raye...

Raye was FAN-TAS-TIC i tell u

i love it when my fam just get together

Although there were some kegenjotan-s

well, i made it thru *GRINS WIDELY*

Also, during raye tu lah,

i found back an old fren.

Im really happy, grateful

n will do my best to keep our relationship strong

Insyallah..Well, like he said, 'We need to work as a team'

Haha..

And today,

im very lucky

coz Mr Pizza hut gave me food

And well,

its really A LOT of GOOD FOOD,

to kasi the budak2 in my hse.

Alhamdulilah

Haha..Banyakkkkk

Sedap.

Thank u Sweetheart =)

Penat balek Geylang

2009-09-19T00:51:00.001+08:00

Oh tidak...
U dont noe...
how crazy the exam week was for me
i almost went nuts...
not because of the stress studying can put u under,
but also from the stress of being divided
btwn whether u wanna go out n 'play'
or just sit there n rot with da books
anw, it was a lot of studying....

More studying...
More, plus somemore, studying....

err, this one just kidding. Its my 12 yrs old bro's assessment..i like the colours though.
Today, after sastera paper, n last paper for the week
kite pi enjoy kejap
cari n buy kasut raye
Them of coz not me
Me beli kasut raye? Terompah sua =)

den ade budak merajok...mampos... Susah ah budak2 perangai cam biolz gini..

den at night, sesat pat bartley with bibik n azimmy
then met mum who waited for an hr at Geylang
we go look for some stuff
Fuhhh....It was challenging man
my mum can really test me...
God, ure way of testing me is very interesting man
i like it...but its kinda challenging at the same tyme

Tmrw
i wanna clean my room
my cupboard
hmm..the rest ok2 already
so afta that ginna study for Tues and Wed papers
econs and Geog..how lovely...nites people!

Just some updates

2009-09-12T13:17:00.000+08:00

That day

I oso dono which day

Fogot lah

I went my sedare house

To visit a granny there

Her house used to have 10 cats

now reduced to 3 only

they're damn irresistable lah

at first malu2 kucing

after some time...

haisyooooh!

kalah kan bapak harimau depo punye semangat!

Cute kan...mcm mintak kene tampar seh. Cute sgt.

Last week, i went to geylang with my friends

Very the happy.

Coz they all very the mepek.

So, i like =)

yesterday, watashi wa pegi itu Johor

Beli banyak2 makanan

coz i got my gaji

haha..blanje cam nobody business seh

Lepas tu beli bunga api

mcm nak beli lebih.

naseb baek tak bleh.

Yang merah (mcm utk org cine bakar2 tu) bunge api sort-of biase...

The ones in the packets are quite explosive

The Satay-sticks-lookalike are fire crackers with 3 colours (red, yellow & green)
The small ones, are like matchsticks

u just light them up like normal matchsticks

but u gotta let them go real fast

coz it'll burn and produce a freaking loud sound

cam terkejot aku bile aku terdengar bunyi die. Tak padan kecik.

And this book..

and everything that's related to it...

Im gonna burn it soon

not now ah

end of this yr

Coz after chatting with satu bro ni

ive made up my mind

and aku redha

Monday, tuesday = Prelim 2

4 papers sio.

Ganbatte me.

Oh ya, this is my board.

Everyday look at it one.

K bye

Teachers' Day siooo

2009-08-31T17:39:00.000+08:00

Happy teachers' Day to all teachers in the world

mm...just thinking..

wat really defines a teacher...

coz to me (just like in sajak Guruku),

a child can be a teacher

they teach me to forgive and forget easily...

a begger can also be a teacher..

He teaches me to be thankful for wat i have...

There are many, many, many more 'teachers'

out there in the real world

so....

what really defines a teacher?

Today i didnt go school

Miss these 3 kids

Tuitionnnnn

2009-08-30T13:29:00.000+08:00

Just had tuition..
made me realised,
damn, its not too difficult ya noe..
just gotta practice gurl...
Gonna do it today, along with my other hmwks..

Oh, and well..
Raye is still quite far.
so puting the raye song
as my backgrd song is just kinda..
mmm-feeling....

so i changed it to this song
that i really like
its a song
which has lyrics that
...i simply think is true..

aite
im gonna finish watching BOF
den im heading to home sweet home
maybe i'll grab some food on da way back for buke
byee~!

Family gathering

2009-08-30T00:00:00.000+08:00

Another day went by
I was unfruitful in terms of my studies
on the other hand,
was pretty useful
in terms of preparing for the gathering
a lot of things u gotta do mann
but i really enjoyed doing so

aniway
We really didnt expect that many to come
in the end
there was so many of them
even though not all of my fam members were here
they brought food to supplement wateve we had
so there was like
Dalcha daging, ayam masak merah, rojak buah,
roti kirai etc...
sedaPPPP!

At first i was so malu
coz its becoz i havent met them for a while
so i was like 'err...wat shld i say hor...
kang aku start aku peh mepek dorg plak yg lari kang'
but well
in the end
satu2 nye perangai burok start menonjol.
hahaha..k lah..it wasnt that bad
they were really funny
after eating, there was the prayers and terawih
den lepak2
it was really FUN
i was soo happy

Now my sedares
kak ida, kak ain, and nana
is lepak-ing at my house
we watching movie Mummy
aite..ciow peepz

Thank God for every bitter n sweet moments

2009-08-29T11:26:00.000+08:00

Haloooooo everyone
Firstly, Happy fasting month
to every muslims that i know
and also in the world.
Insyallah, let's all do our best to ensure
that we this year it'll be a fulfilling Ramadhan.
Coz we'll never know, if we ever get
to celebrate Ramdhan again next year.
(Remember Firman Allah - Jadi, maka jadilah)
And yes, ive changed my backgrd song.
HAHAHA, come on everyone!!! Feeling-Raye Mannnnn

2ndly, watashi wa knows tat i havent been updating
omg, if u look at my timetable u'd know why man
and then u can check out my cute pink book
to see the list of wonderful assignments we have

So....have fun looking at this entry =)

My prelims 2 is coming up real soon
GP paper this coming wed
so preparing for it.

Aniway,
i just realised
that at last im gonna leave Innova
and it just hit me
that well,
im gonna miss Innova.
Its people.
Its environment.
Its food at the canteen.
Everything.

Maybe this sound cruel,
but ive never felt this way for my previous schs

But wateve it is,
im happy with all the memories that ive created here
and for now,
im working towards a great ending
so that i can leave Innova
with pride
for my sch, for family and for myself =)

But most imptly,
i really thank God
for allowing me to meet my classmates
yr 2009 and ESPECIALLY yr 2008
coz they really, really made a difference to my life
each and everyone of them.
I know we went thru loads of shit together.
I love you guys
truly from the bottom of my heart.
Here are some photos of 2008 - 2009:

I will miss wearing the sch uniform

I'll miss a lot of stuff

But thank u God

for giving me such wonderful memories

before i leave this world.

Mak Kau, emo siot...

Ya, today im having my nenenehhhh

so....ya.

Tday, my family (big one) coming over.

Gonna be a bit bz .

Take care people.

Gimme just a second and i'll be alright

2009-08-09T12:02:00.000+08:00

Im BLOODY tired.

Mwhehe.

Otak pon dh senteng semcm

*mate nakal goes wild again*

Yest, i worked as hard as a constructn worker

at my granny's hous at msia

i was seriously like a bangla

i use tools ive nvr tot i wld ever use in my entire life

i worked on it till i became an expert already

the dust..

all in the air..

the house will be like really2 smoky..

& settled on ma shlder n hair

till my whole hair was white

bibik was laughing saying ive developed so many ubanz

ughh..die tak tau nak basuh nye tu mcm nak rak

ikutkan hati cam nak masokkan kepale dlm mesin basuh je

the sweat..

wearing a mask sommore..

i was sweating like a pig lah

lantai cement kasar2..

panas psl takde fan..

how did i make it sia

but anw

i enjoyed wat i did

that i did it

for so long

until my hands and legs cannot move

really.

im not kidding.

i cldnt even talk and eat at first

coz it was really2 painful

& it was almost impossible for me to lift my hands

and yes, i noe its obscene

but i sat down all the way when i was bathing

coz i just cldnt stand anymore

hahaha..u all must be wondering wat the hell did i do

to end up that way rite? hahaha

i oso donno lahh

But anw

it was a really great trip

spent with my fam.

We get daerah bandar, pontian, skudai, 'Sentosa' to mkn bubur

(there is this area in johor thats called sentosa btw)

i got home

ate panadol

slept terlentang

coz i don wanna lean on my shlders

until 9am.

now i feel better.

but still pain here, pain there.

Im looking forward to tmrw.

BUt most imptly,

TODAY IS NATIONAL DAYYYYYY!!!

WoooohoOOOOOOOOOO!

im like sooooo excited to watch the bunga api

(even though its just frm the TV. Shuddup.)

But wateve it is,

IM PROUD TO BE A SINGAPOREAN. Woohooo!

Aite. Feeling dizzy again

gtg

Im different from them

2009-08-02T19:09:00.000+08:00

For this week and the past few,
school was very challenging.
Its not just abt how mentally challenging it can be
when ure in a class.
Its also about how emotionally traumatising it can be.
Haha..Ok..its not that we're threatened with death and cruel punishmnts or wat.
Its just really2 scary.
Everyday, u come to sch with that one fact in ure mind all day long.
"If u dun get into a Uni, ure A-level certificate is as just as useful as a toilet paper."
Fail, and ure dead.
Simple.

And it doesnt help that teachers just love counting down the days with u.

And it gets worst when u see ure foundation is one of the worst ever
as a JC student.

And each tyme u sit for a test,
u noe u did so bad,
that even a pass wld be a miracle.
But tell me, where can u go with just a PASS?

Everyday,
leave home in the morn.
Will come home only at 6-7
coz yes, its normal to end sch so late

Its sumting like poly life
except that the longs breaks are replaced
with long periods of cramming all those info into ure head.
Not that im saying poly easy hor,
i noe its not like that at all
and i always believe
everyone have their own challenges
its way different in JC and poly
so comparing is just way too stupid
stop comparing people.
Sheesh.

Im left with 1 mth for Prelim 2.
And 3 mths for A-level.
Everyday i do the countdown,
the puking sensation is just great man.

But well,
insyAllah, i'll be ok.
With Allah's bimbingan,
and the support that all my loved ones is giving to me,
I will work hard to achieve my goal.

Kayyyy i shld stop blabbering non-stop
Its maghrib now
gtg.

oh ya. Saw this today
"Regardless of what is happening around u,u have to believe
in the possibility of the achievement of your dream."

Be strong Anisah.

Utterly disgusted at your behaviour

2009-08-02T01:51:00.000+08:00

Cinta yang tak dapat aku nikmati

Memendam seribu bayang tak pasti

Kesungguhan sudah tak nampak lagi

Kutakkan bisa jalani

Memeluk bintang yang indah tak dapat

Hanya mampu sebatas menatapi

Ketidak sepahaman menghalangi

Aku tak sanggup bila terus begini..

Aku tak tahan lagi

Aku tak sanggup lagi

Mengertikan dirimu

Mengertikan cintamu

Aku tlah bosan lagi

Aku tak mau lagi

Mengertikan dirimu

Mengertikan cintamu

Hati yang tak dapat bisa mengerti

Terpaksa kunikmati semua itu

Renungkan rasa jiwa yang tak pernah

Bisa mengerti dan arti besar cintaku..

ST12 - Aku tak sanggup lagi =)

Ya Allah. Thank U.

2009-07-22T15:34:00.000+08:00

Sch's been tuff as hell.
Its fun lah, but really challenging.
Ive been pushing myself to be disciplined
and thats y, i hadnt had the time
to update this blog.
FaceBook ok2 lah.
Check daily,
coz at least im not talking to myself like right abt nw.

For now
Nothing else
but A-level
should be on my mind.

Last week,
its been a bit tough,
coz sumting frm the past emerged back.
But im back on track right nw.

Believe me
Im one of the slowest in class.
Makes me so scared to even go to sch at times
but u noe wat
Im not being fair to mum and Dad
So everyone,
lets pray togther
and hope that we achieve our dreams.

Lets be strong people.
Take care =)

4th Quarantine Dayyyy

2009-07-07T00:11:00.000+08:00

Has been bout one week i didnt see this guy

More than one week sia...

Miss u Ilhan

Grr...Wish i can see him sia...

Heard that he's already learning to walk

Alahaiiii..cute nah lah tu...Haha

Err...thats me..trying my hardest to make a weird face with the mask on...
Haha..That tyme dah nak tdo tapi takde keje sooo...Ble Ble Brr Maaaahhhhh.....
anw, i always have one mask in my pocket
in case i need to enter my sister room real quick
Mcm nurse..tapi nie bedek peh nurse.

Smalam blaja buat roti jala for the first tyme
Slame nie cume tlg2 jek
This tyme did it on my own..Yay!
k lah, bibik pon tlg2..coz die nak blaja =)

Lazy to turn the pic liao...
I smile very the funny leh in the pic...

Serak seh..Hahaha
Gerek ah!

Sisters from Indon & Spore =D

The other tyme

Me, Azim, Kak melor, Kak Su ngan Abg

g cari durian

Mlm2

pat daerah hutan ah

we began at abt 1030

We brought a few torchlight

Tapi in the end, satu je worked

ntah ngape ntah rosak tibe2

So we walked slowly

in the dark

i swear that a lot of the parts

we were wlaking in total darkeness

and me,

supposedly the berani one (sedangkan aku penakut gile babi),

had to be last one

in the line

so most of the time

i take my next step

according to my instinct

Falling, hitting stuffs..

Semut merah keluar masok slua aku

cam nobody business seh (die ingat pasar mlm agaknye)

Then after one hr or more

Kite terjumpe org pat dlm

kite first2 reluctant nak bobal ngan dorg

int the end aku dok2 ngan dorg

jgn ckp dudok je, tompang mkn durian dorg skali seh

hahaha.

Uncle potongkan

Baik hati seh

Dorg dah jumpe close to 35

kite maseh baru jumpe 3

when it was 1150 like dat

This was what it was like at the forest

pitch black

yg lampu tu candle

Uncle tu kasi satu

This was the entry to the place

Its a longkang ah

No2.. kita tak masok longkang..walk beside it...
Busuk lah kalau gitu...

In the end, we decided to pack up

we got out of the place

at abt 1245 if im nt wrong

walk to our vehicle..

The Uncles packing up
Afta that, send kak su back and head hm

Total, ade jugak dpt 10 biji

Free Duriaannnsss

Actualli its nt abt the no. of durians u obtain la

its the experience

gerek

coz i learned a lot

how to get the durian

looking for the fruit in the dark

which plant to avoid

being close to insects

and well, getting bitten here and there

and most imptly,

blaja beranikan diri =)

Fun lah

Aite people

Nitez

Indulge in these mind games

2009-07-04T11:10:00.000+08:00

Last nite emo shit seh
haha
kesian si dua ekor tu kene dengar aku mepek meraban
But well
COME ON NISA!!!
The world wont stop spinning,
and u just gotta keep winning!!!!
WOAAAAAHHHH!!!!
k2...lameness kicking in...morning 'highness' dikatekan
anw
looking forward to next friday

so that i can lepak with the rest like this...

Well its the second day of quarantine

I'll just have to keep looking for more things to do

which im sure i'd find soon enuf

Wokay peeps

Ciow sinchi...

Adious...Amigos...Aku berambus =)

Bukit Timah Family Trip

2009-07-03T20:34:00.000+08:00

Last week

I was studyin

suddenly my father came into the room

he said

"nisa, melor, dengar smue.

frm nw on, abah nak kite smue exercise.

Starting frm this wk

kite try new activities.

This saturday g bukit timah kay"

then die jln

kite2 smue muke teros jadi gini

O_O

Pejam celik, pejam celik

Saturday pon sampai

And bapak aku kasi camera

memories lah dikatekan

dah brape tahon seh tak penah exercise

gini mcm

as in my papa and mama lor...

Kak D and Kak Su joined us

Starting, i still dono how to use the cam yet

tapi tengok ah..

makin lame gambar makin bagos..

Baik punya cilooookk!

Starting je bpk aku dah pancit
tak sampai 5 minit pon die hike

nak step romantic lah pulak..haha

Kak Melor ngan Kak Su

ooohhhhh yeahhhhh...talk abt boobilicious huh

Slowly, we went up the hill

Aiming to reach the peak

Still learning how to take nice photos..

Kakak aku tercungap-cungap...

In 15 minutes time

kite sampai the peak =)

We wanted to go down the hill again

but after talking to some of the hikers

my father was thrilled to try out the nature path

Felling "close to nature lah" dikatekan

Kau kalau tgok starting path die jer...

alamak...mcm terteguk air liur sendiri siket peh bnyk..

kaki rase lembik semcm je tibe2..

steep gile sio...

Unfortunately

It started raining heavily

basah kuyup kite dibuatnye

abeh bile jumpe shelter

penuh nak mampos

so bapak aku,as per normal,

with that Rambo-look in his eyes

"let's just go"

once againn....O_O

Sampai terbongkok-bongkok seh

aku pon tercungap2

My father was grinning widely as he watch his cute Melor

struggle....

she was seriously climbing...

but to me..

more like crawling ah...

macam kerbau baru belajar merangkak

haha

tapi kakak aku strong lah sio...

dah gemok, ade semput plak..

Aku kalau tengok die teringat babi2 cute yg pat cartoon tu

cute sgt...

hmm...jgn takot...nie babi halal punye
mampos die choke slam aku kalau die nmpk nie

moving on...

..Pitiful..

Tourist guide for the day

Oh..we were sitting down

coz guess waht...

We got lost

Took the wrong path

in the end we walk one freaking big round

which in the end does not even bring us to the bottom of the hill

Continue jugak ah..mcm nak pengsan...

but for me..gerek gile ah

i was like taking lots of nature pics

walking alone at the back..

just me and nature...

wahhhhhhh~~!!!

Took this pic

Cool right?!?!?!

with such a lousy camera u noe!!

Ohohoho...

Alahmdulilah =)

This picture somewhat reminds me that

"there's always hope no matter what"
Because there are some parts of the forest that was pretty thick

and therefore dark

but suddenly at this area..got light..=)

Mak orang utan

Anak orang utan dan sedare rapatnye..

Lepas tu dah lepas brape lame berjalan, merayau, merangkak

Sampai balek ke peak

Peak tau, bukannye bwh bukit

pelan2 turon bukit

sekali tibe2

ramai memberz ahyeen dtg ahhh

feeling Planet of the Apes sioo

Azim...kau bile degil betol2 mcm moneyt azim...

at least dorang cute...kau burok dol...brghhhh...

penat betol beleteh pat die...

Action sio nie anak

Bnyk kan?

Haha..

Dah habes dah trip

Gerek ah

Looking forward to the next trip

Insyallah

But for now

let this influenza problem pass by first

Take care people

Seriously..Never thought it'd happen

2009-07-03T08:41:00.001+08:00

Its 840am
and its a friday
why am i at home?

haizzz....
its such a simple question
but my heart really dread answering it
but well
mite as well blog abt it
coz its nt like ive my frens to talk to now

My sister has been tested postive of H1N1

And it totally sucks

Coz i really pity her
while i watch my family members
squirm bout their pitiful lives....

k lah
not that bad
as in they're angry why they are not granted MC
while they have to use their leave instead
then there's also the part where some worry bt what their colleagues will say
then there's also the workload to think abt to once they come back
ade yg gadoh ngan matair abeh nak masam2...talk abt menyampah..
so they're all in their own depressing mood

i just dont get it

All i really think abt
is how pitiful my sis is
its not easy to be in that condition ok

i mean the bloody high fever brings abt headeache
that last for HOURS
U sneeze so many times like ure nose want to drop off
ure tekak perit coz so much coughing
and the kahak just clogs up ure tekak
and u cant breathe properly

all that suffering
and yest she was really sad
becoz we noe all these cos money
just her visit to TTS yest cost her slighty more than $200.

so u see
why all that thoughts
when ure not actualli suffering as badly
sighhhh

but well
skrg they are ok alreadi
they actualli help my sis up
clean her 'quarantine room'
put masks aside for our use
there's also some spraying of dettol
and lap sane sini

im really greatful i have such caring parents

anw
now there's other stuff to worry abt now
like this week nye food supply dah habes
nak g pasar..tapi dah kene quarantine
so macam mane kan...

oh ya btw
me, azim and my father is issued LOA
which is 7 compulsory days of leave frm sch
my mum and my bro not allowed to go work

Its kinda weird actuaali
to have everyone in the fam suddenly at hm

Takpe lah
I believe nie smue ade hikmahnye

Walaupun aku tak dpt g skola
jumpe kwn
silat dah gone case ah
dua minggu tak dpt g
and my prelims are affected

better go check out that fatto

im refering to my sister that is...
hahaha
what?!
im still the old evil+cool anisah k

Its night and im blurr...my brain's dead...burrghhhh

2009-06-25T03:30:00.000+08:00

Bam Bam Di Dam Dam Dam Di Yum Yum

(following Rihanna Song's tune)

Today go sch, go home, go silat

Sarah and Ain camey ovaaaa

Kite bobal-bobal..cool kape sia...lepas tu yelah..cam biase..the 3 letter word..

kwang kwang kwang...pikiak apo tu...

takle...its a four letter word...

hmm...

guess ar ape?

hmm...fikir ape saje tau udak2 nie

the word is "cook"

neeeehhhhhhh....u dissapointed? huh?! huh?!?!

ok..i better stop doing this to myself

haha..kite buat jempot2 adabi sepaket

habes sehingga menjilat jari kaki mak aku nye adek nye isteri punye posman punye...

err..boring..next

Well...

Gambar2 budak2 bonggok nie ngan aku

Nie dua ekor...irritating seh..

satu panggil aku bitch..satu panggil aku 'pi mati ah'

nanti korang...

satu hari nanti...

aku sepak korang sampai berjoget baru tau

Nari go silat-to..Okay lahh..Well, it was an impt trainng session to me..coz its my last wed training for now till Oct like dat..And yeah, said goodbye to some people..hahaha..bobal cam ramai jer umat2 yg kenal aku

And well..something happened. tt made me realised jgn sekali2 kita kurang ajar ngan org..kalau dah terjadi dah tak ape tapi MESTI beranikan diri and say sorry kalau dah bersalah..tak senang, tapi bisa kan..kan? kan?!? Say something!!! bargghhhhhhh....

k. i siow-siow oleadi. Astafar banyak2.

K2. malas nak bobal ah. Coz tokin on the fone with e two morons now

Adam, dtg on Fri k. Syaza pon. Alah malah semue gondol2 lah dtg lahh

I love all my friends and family members.

Yang sakiti aku, takpelah, aku redha....Pi lari pat tembok ahh...Hahaha!(Ain ngan Sarah faham). Kalau yg paham, senyum je lah..kalau tak, ar pi lah lari pat tembok betul2..Insyallah dpt ilham.

Cool per sia aku...* Doing BabaAli's cool face*

k..salam

Dong kedong dong dongz..

2009-06-23T11:11:00.000+08:00

Salamz people..

Me and fam went org kawin on Saturday

and well bibik ikat my hair very nicely..

its actualli looks like the bread from "the Champion" shop..

err...i actualli forgot whats the name of the shop..

anw took a pic of it for kenangan

My blur2 bibik..Her hair...fuh..stylo milo..Alah she no matter what hair style also she bloody pretty one..

Moving on
i was looking at photos in my thumbdrive
came across this photo
i was like...
"wahhhhh...I really want this lehhhh"
hahaha
Insyallah lah ehk..

Yest went to sch
had geog, star programme
then go Adam hous to take baju silatz frm akak
then adam was there
(Inner devil voice: duh...its his house wat..stupid or wat..this chilalongkong)
(Inner angel voice: Yalahh..doesnt mean he at hm rite..Waduh..otaknya di maanaa)
So we talked a little
Kesian die..seems like die disalah fahamkan..
and then he realli wanted me to go silat
at first i reluctant
then i decided to
ok per..g silat gerek seh
so aku balek
g amek baju
travel ke uma ain plak
skali dpt sms dari nad kate aku takle g...
sedih bgtzz....
tapi takpe ahh

Today
i realised
how each word we say
can really make a difference
Its like if u ask for a salesgirl to take smting for u
and she says.."no, no!, This one like dat one lahhhh. Im not joking"
Confirm u annoyed right
As compared to "im sorry, but we cant get that for u"
WHICH ONE BETTER???
i mean..
u as the salesgirl
must u feel damn sorry just to say the word sorry??
no rightt
but well, its up to the person lah
coz some people will be like i dunnoe u y shld i care rite wat i say n wat u feel
Same goes for this life lah
just becoz kau tak suke org tu,
ade ke patut kite treat org tu badly..
kalau kite tak suke org tu psl perbuatan die,
who are u to punish someone that way?
sape kauuuu???
hah!? sape?!?! *gets emotional and throws the table..chair..bread..mug..*
hahaha
k2 im just joking ard
but u get wat im saying rite..
This is nisa reminding u just in case u forgot
hahaha..Baba ali style huh..

Mlm we had a famly gathering session
just my fam
talk things out man...
Azim's gona hav to go thru some changes alreadi yaww

k lah...
lame2 pat sini pon boring..
gua pergi dulu yaaaa
(Inner devil voice: Alah nak pegi pon memekak..Ingat die popular sgt per org kesah..pi mati ah)
(Inner angel voice: Ehhh..tak baik tau ckp mcm gtu..ya allah..kenape lah si setan nie setan sgt..)

Arghhh..dua2 diam lahhhhh!!

hahahaha
im mad huh..
at least aku tak biolz per..
hahahaha...Sarah u get me riteeee
Salam smue =)

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2009-06-20T00:24:00.000+08:00

Today

Woke up at 8am

No..No..

got it all wrong

i woke up at 715

went to loo

sat in the toilet till 8am

thats what happens when u cant shit for 4 days

and mind u

im still shitting badly now

grrghhhhhbuawhdkajw...

At 245

met Nadia, Zu, Sam, Nadirah, Herda

for a movie

heard of it?
well, pretty good show go catch it if u have the money and time
Its just that the ending cam dah expected ah
so dah tak gerek
haha..
but other than that,
its good
watch this,
and ure in for a ride =)

After that
sat at Banquet togther
It was really enjoyable
Even if it was for a while
i actually forgot abt most of my worries,
smiling and laughing =D
K lah, budak2 tu pon nakal
bodoh2 kan aku
hahaha
ingat best eh feeling bodoh?
tapi okay jugak lah..haha

Then went to silat
otw
at first
i was indecisive
as to whether i shld go silat or not
coz got nadia mahhh
tot wanna cabot
hahahahaha...tak dpt ah Nadia, gua setia..cam betol
tapi takpe..
coz on the bus
we just sat and talk
Truth is
i really miss her being in silat
and weirdly,
when i wanted to step down frm the bus
and said gdbye to her
i felt quite sad
but well,
just smile it away lor...

Afta tat, Silat
I had to lead the team of kids
at first blur gile
cam malu2 siket pon ade
but in the end
i think it was ok
at least they learned smting right
so yeah, pat on the back! =)

Balek tyme
ade orang ckp aku suke orang nilah, apelah..
haha
its funny when ure actually the one who like the person
but u use another person instead
just to satisfy ure inner curiosity
abt the person u like...
urghh...malas nak lyn...
wa rilek

Overall
Hari nie satisfied giler
I get to meet old mates
Get to relax after studying for a whole week
get to SILAT!!!
Alhamdulilah
Thanks to Allah

Countdown

2009-06-18T13:15:00.000+08:00

My prelims is getting near

The amount of work done is increasing

But at a rather slow pace i must say

Gotta work harder man

Ive been at home most of the time

Like my fren said "besarkan pantat"

(what the hell, so crude lah)

and sort of studying

its really hard

because there's a lot of things going on around u

the Tv's on, blaring out loud

need to be responsible for my bro's work at the same time

and on my part, i have to fight this disease called 'lazyness'

and well yeah, its during tough time like this

that i keep wanting to puke

coz im just damn nervous

most of the time

at times, i just escape by watching some DVDs

or ask my sister to bring me out for a ride

and this friday ive got silat

maybe some kicking ought to make me feel better

for now

i really miss mak onah

i didnt contact her for quite some time already

i miss hanging out with my silat frens

its most probable that im not going for wednesday silat nimore

from now till november

its kinda hard for me

since silat has been my way of releasing all the tension in my head

but well

once im done with my A's (and i aim and hope to do it well)

im gonna go silat for monday, wednesday, and friday

gotta catch up a lot by then

also, i think then wld be e right time to take my license

and increase my knowledge regarding the "arts world"

all these needs bloody lots of effort

for now, i cant give up for my A's right?

Its true, these days

i keep thinking about my secondry sch frens,

year 1 JC frens,

silat members...

especially those who are 'gone' ..

and i used to have this special guy fren

who's really doing well now,

but ive never had the opportunity to talk to him anymore

its really sad and its time like these

that i always remember the things he did for me

such as sending me back after night studies in WRS

and all those words of encouragemnt

I nvr really tot of all these last time

hahaha..must say im quite a STUPID girl when it comes to tt

you nvr appreciate something until its gone

but well, all things happened for a reason

Percayalah bahawa ada hikmah di sebaliknya

For all those who are 'gone'

all i can do is pray and hope that maybe one day we'll meet again

but for now

studies and agama most important

followed by silat

but most importantly, gotta cherish what i have now

like mum and dad

who's been there for me all the time

and well, i always have my sis and bibik to laugh out loud with

and my 2 irritating brothers to beat up

haha..ya right..

and great frens who have always inspired me

to be become a much much much better being

wow....

my whole entry sounds so..emo lah...

well...

i do feel emo at times ok...blurghhhh

oh ya!

yest i was reading newspaper

came across this:

It takes a minute to like someone

It takes an hour to crush on someone

It takes a day to love someone

But it takes forever to forget someone

This is what i call awesome-shit..hahaha...

bye..mugging time...

2009-06-11T18:34:00.000+08:00

On mondayyy

Meeeeeeeee,

ma adek n sedaroo go jalan2

They frm msia come sini mali

for 3 day 2 nite

my mission is to make them happy,

ensure this trip more memorable than the previous pnes

and spend $20 only.

at first i bring them go bukit batok CSC

play at arcade

then bowling

donno for what..every ball also gutter

muahaha..had to laugh at them man..

no lah..i tried to teach

then my ball also guter liao

nyehehe

lek sua, starting je gutter..

lepas tu smue.hmm...baaaek punyaa

hahaha..

tak sabar seh nak lwn ngan

sarah, nad, herda, sam, adam, syaza ngan irfan lagi

hehehe

then i brought them swimming at sarah house

Mimi, azim, Lin =)

Lepas makan jek tdo..haha..kite bwk nasi bungkus..save money mahhhh

I didnt get to take pics of them at silat later
Lin and azim silat with me
very cute
but afta that my leg veri the pain

Neeeeext!
err...this one i go jemputanz
with Sam, Adam, Ibrahim, Irfan and Siraaj.
Got 3 jemputan
i only went for two
Its fun to hang out with them
and i get to watch them 'perform'
must say i was quite proud of them ler
huhuhu

nice shirt..want one too...
Ini adam..

setiap kali ade cam, muke die mesti menjelma

hahaha..si Ibrahim step cool plaaak..alamakk..haha

Irfan!

Jgn show-off dimples lahhh

grrrr...

budak sebelah tak abes2 complain panas..

and Siraaj...u look...weird..hahaha...jk liao =)

Damn lah

i gotta rush hm soon

ciows