I'm done with emo-ing

Yo. Just came back from Sarah house. Ain, mas, arif, ariff, herda, Nad, Lat, Halym and me went Sarah house to have the farewell party for Ain who's gona go Dubai soon. Boohoo..That monkey..Im gonna miss her.

We ate a cake, took silly photos, went swimming where so much 'violence' and idioticness happened, and ended it off with a meal which Sarah's dad has kindly bought for us. Fuhhh..terhutang budi seh dgn Sarah's parents.Bukan sekali dua kali kite dtg rumah die buat kacau.Hehehe..

After that we head home and in the bus, we were playing truth or dare. Some of the facts that i heard was actually quite shockin', while some questions were so complicated that i had quite a hard time answering them to myself. When we arrive at CWP, me Arif Ariff Mas & Ain went McCafe. At first I didnt wanna go. But then something Arif did made me change my mind. Before that, he said something abt me that made me think a lot. But some encouraging words and a pat on the back totally changed my mind and mood (He's nvr done such a thing to me b4, & i nvr thought he wld). I was quite caught up in some emotional stuff for the whole day. But when Arif, Ariff, Mas & Ain smiled and encouraged me, all that went away and i feel much better now.

So we then lepak and talked at Mc Cafe. Its really surprising how mature these guys are. I know Mas & Ain are mature in some stuff but it was totally unexpected frm both Arif & Ariff. The way they think..so deep..so unique..it was actually refreshing and i like their views. I was really glad they allow me to express myself a little and on the whole, it was great. Thanks guys. Even though it was only for a while, you guys made a difference to my day and perhaps, my life (Ceh Ceh macam over gitu. Haha). Cuz if not, i mite still be stuck to my own selfish thoughts.

So, what i've learned today is never expect for something in return and that i should avoid comparing. well these may sound simple and common, but when it happned to me, i actually start to realise how important these simple words are and how they can really change your life.

Man, i miss silat. I've been yearning to go Nad's house to do some good kicking and punching but its not possible with all the activities lined up for this week. So thats why even if I have Adam khoo, i'd still go for silat at nite. Last time, i used to hate running, exercising. Even kicking at taekwondo made me so tired and bored. But at silat, everything i learn is so cool and practical that all the things that i hate becomes the things that i actually dun mind or even like.

I was just thinking abt this and so here it goes:

When im with u

Silence doesnt mean im mad

Sometimes i'm just shy & still learning abt u

But pls dun ignore me just becoz im quiet

Cuz sometimes the truth is that i'm waiting

Waiting for someone to take the first step

and hold out their hand

sincerely