Im different from them

For this week and the past few,
school was very challenging.
Its not just abt how mentally challenging it can be
when ure in a class.
Its also about how emotionally traumatising it can be.
Haha..Ok..its not that we're threatened with death and cruel punishmnts or wat.
Its just really2 scary.
Everyday, u come to sch with that one fact in ure mind all day long.
"If u dun get into a Uni, ure A-level certificate is as just as useful as a toilet paper."
Fail, and ure dead.
Simple.

And it doesnt help that teachers just love counting down the days with u.

And it gets worst when u see ure foundation is one of the worst ever
as a JC student.

And each tyme u sit for a test,
u noe u did so bad,
that even a pass wld be a miracle.
But tell me, where can u go with just a PASS?

Everyday,
leave home in the morn.
Will come home only at 6-7
coz yes, its normal to end sch so late

Its sumting like poly life
except that the longs breaks are replaced
with long periods of cramming all those info into ure head.
Not that im saying poly easy hor,
i noe its not like that at all
and i always believe
everyone have their own challenges
its way different in JC and poly
so comparing is just way too stupid
stop comparing people.
Sheesh.

Im left with 1 mth for Prelim 2.
And 3 mths for A-level.
Everyday i do the countdown,
the puking sensation is just great man.

But well,
insyAllah, i'll be ok.
With Allah's bimbingan,
and the support that all my loved ones is giving to me,
I will work hard to achieve my goal.

Kayyyy i shld stop blabbering non-stop
Its maghrib now
gtg.

oh ya. Saw this today
"Regardless of what is happening around u,u have to believe
in the possibility of the achievement of your dream."

Be strong Anisah.