I was once there for ...

How i wish
i didnt see you

How i wish
You didnt recognize me

Its all for one reason

A reason you can never understand

Coz each time i see you
History comes back to life
I'm haunted by my own mistake
A mistake i can never get over with
A mistake that i think you yourself are unwilling to forget

How i wish i can stay by your side and take care of you
How i wish to be there for you when your world's upside down

How i wish i can help ease your pain
and see you smile
A real smile...
not that superficial one you've always put on..
just to make others happy
They may be happy, but i'm not.

How i wish i can show you
how much of a blessing your presence is to others & me.
And give you what you deserve and more.
You may not see it.
But I definitely do.

There was once i didn't wanna see you at all.
I ran away.
Forgetting all those times you stood by me,
taken care of me..
I didnt even get to know the real you.
Now, Ive regretted it so bad.
I was just hoping for another chance,
but i know i don't deserve it.
And all my wishes, will just be wishes.
Its good you pushed me away.

But thank God.
You've moved on.
You've grown to be someone.
And I'm really proud of you.

Even though i don't talk abt you anymore..
Even though i've never been able to see you..
You will always be in my mind and heart.

Maybe that few seconds of eye contact was quite meaningful after all.
Thks Allah.

Maybe
just maybe...
I'll be able to talk to you again..
See you again..
The future's uncertain.
But is it wrong if i have even a little bit of hope?



Whatever it is,
I'll always pray for your well being

Take care
I'll always miss you,
that cute, chubby, bespectacled boy i've always known.