I got to move on..for the sake of KW, my fam and myself

Well
there's a change again
im not officially together with him animore
for some reason
that i think he'd rather i not say
im sad
yes
& a bit confused
but...
i'm sure there's a hikmah
behind all these happenings
I trust him
so for now
we'll be just friends
we're also like a famly anyway
since we're both in the KW silat team
I thank him for all the precious moments
he's given to me
I've made a desicion
hahakz...so mysterious horr
nahh..nothing siow2 lah
i'd rather not say it thats all

Well
today was a tough day for me
i woke up and all these happened
i went out
not knowing where to go
all i know is i gotta get out
so i went to interchange
took any bus i saw
happened to be 963
then i just remembered
that it headed towards labrador park
so i went there


walked all the way there
at times i just stopped
bawled out loud like a baby
then walk again
while at times i just sing out loud
to the songs im listening to
and yeah,
got anrgy at some of the lyrics
coz i find that it ain't true
so i shouted to the air
there was once this couple who was on a vehicle
they stared at me when i did that
huhuhu..paiseh..i think they think i mad
hahaha..watever

then i walk2 ard
took pictures of the historical sites
went to the loo which was literally empty
walk ard summore
then i reach a point where it was too beautiful to ignore
so i just stood there and stare ahead

it was there that i tot abt everything that has happened
then
i sms him
coz a thought just occured to me
he replied
and i wasnt happy
so i started scolding him
haha



as i was waiting for his replies
i walked down
towards the sea
sat at a bench
cried silently
while listening to music



then he called
i ignored the first one
but well the second one was hard to ignore
so i picked it up
we talked
we cried
we cldnt finish wat we were saying
coz my batt flat



after that
i felt much better
I wanted to meet him
but as i got to his house
he wasnt ard
so too bad

i went hm
and slept
like a log
for a few hrs
when i woke up
my mum was mad at my sis
so she threw her anger at me
she said i had a great day outside
not giving a damn bt the famly
selfish as hell
great
such words of encouragement
haha..



so i woke up
bathed, ate,
it seemed so difficult to move on
without him
but then
so suddenly
i just remembered one of Siti's song
the lyrics are:





Apapun yang terjadi
Berjalanlah tanpa henti
Air mata tertahan
Waktu untuk dijatuhkan

Nanti kita kan tahu
Betapa bijaknya hidup
Sepahit apapun ini
Pelajaran yang berarti



Semoga kepergianmu
Tak akan merubah apapun
Semoga mampu kulawan
Kesepianku...



Im gonna listen to her advice
and move on...
for now
there are many impt things to attend to



I wont forget my promises to him
thats for sure..

Thank u for everything Aliff =)