My life now..

Hey...

Another day..

of me breathing on this earth

huhuhu..

Im now trying to eat

but sumhow

i just cant get this thing

which is my food

to go down my throat

haha..

nah..im not aneroxic

how dare u

i just...

can't.

slowly lah ar

Well well

i am so proud

of my silat uniform

that aliff has kindly bought for me

terhutang budi seh

When i got it

I was smiling like some idiot

and i cldnt stop

even when Sam kacau me

haha..

i really

really really

treasure it

so when i got back hm

well..

u can guess wat i do lah rite

i hug it

take pictures

lol

its like totally wth to some people

but to me

mmm....

happi gilerrr

=)

Its quite big actualli.

i tot i looked like a giant.

But the sluar ok

no matter what

im very glad

and bersyukur

i get one

for myself

so must relli thank that man

Well...Yesterday was a tough day for me

I didnt wanna stay at hm

coz i was scared that i'd just lose control

and cry in front of my fam

they'd be worried

so i said i was going out

And left...

So here were some of the pics that i took

It was kinda quiet in the 'forest'

i was alone

but i didnt feel alone

my bulu roma slalu ternaik

but i still continued

some of the places were quite eerie

but it was cool ar

to get absorbed into the past

I tot this place was relli beautiful..so i stopped by

here's the view...beautiful right?

So that was abt yesterday

Today

I tot i was gonna be alone for the day

but Ain syg ask me to go out

and study with her

which i was really grateful for

At first we went to SSC

me and siow char boh
We then went her house to study..

At first want to study..

but that that gila woman accidentally sleep

leaving me with nothing to do

so i took a pic of myself

Waliau...my face like tak cukop makan sehh

Sleeping beast at the back...annoying freak.hahaha

She den woke up

Scream2

shout2

seriously siow

started to take my pictures

walaneh this womann..

She ask me to pose summore.."model siket!", she said..

aku pon takde keje pegi ikotkan

haha

Model ke hape nie..

Muke org tak betul ade ar...

haha

Her sister's bf came over

so we chat

had 2 meals together

it was quite fun actualli

i was laughing a lot

thanks to ain, iskandar, kak Jannah and the guy..forgot his name

haha..next time i ask ain again horr...

But despite all that
behind that smile
only God knows
what i felt..

Everytime i think of him
he makes me smile
coz he always do sumting crazy
in front of everyone

I dun mind talking bt him
but for now..
i'd rather learn to distract myself

cuz i cant lie
it does hurt after all
i tell myself be strong..
be strong..

At a time like this
when i need my friends
theyre not there
satu je..
im lucky to have ain

I have sch to worri abt
i know
but it hurts
whenever i think
abt him..
but i know..
its not easy for him too
thats why
im staying strong
for his sake
so that when i meet him
maybe i can smile
i hope
by doing so
he wont be so worried
so i'll do my best
to help him

Oh ya..
seems like the girl realli wants him
i donno...
its really a complicated situation..

God...
forgive me


help me

Alrite
gotta eat now
tata