Sick man...sick of you..

Yesterday silat
The outcome
was really
unexpected

i learned
the real reason
of the let go

I learned
how this
has affected another girl
and yes
she's crying
not becoz of me
but becoz
of what's been done
and what she's done

now
i think
she have to do somthing else
for her own good
which wld
affect him

i also learned
more
abt my KW mates
i was glad
that one of them told me
'we'll always be behind u'
'u'll grow stronger
and nothing else'

im glad
to know
that im not alone

as for him
im tired of him
im tired
of being nice
to him
im sick
of the fact
that everytime
when there's silat
he makes me
feel darn sick
with that sick attitude of his

i really
have to salute him
for being able
to take care
of his 'girls' well
but u noe what
i think life's much greater than just abt that

maybe now
he cant see
what he has done
those words that he said
without thinking
of my feelings
how hurtful it was..

but im sure
one day
he'd regret it

i dont wanna
wish him bad luck
or watsoeve
coz he's famly to me
as long as he's part of KW

We mite have to meet
and 'talk'
i can say
wat i have to say
but im not sure
whether it'll go in
he's just blissfully ignorant
he's just not willing to listen
to him
now that everything's turned out this way
he'll just say 'so what'
its very expected

now i know
im not alone
there are others
who cld also see
what he has done
and understand
what im feeling

im not saying
that he's a bad person
i just think
some of the things he did
is just
really
not right

he better change
his future
hasnt he tot of it..
nah
i think he does
so much that it drives him
almost mad
that he is now
running away frm it

im sorry..
i guess
this is it
i cant be the nicey nice nisa
and let u step over me
again

i wana be Nisa again
im looking for myself again
ive lost pieces of myself
when all these happened

It wont be long
i'll be back soon
im already laughing this thing off
coz now
im just thinking of u
as one big joke
one big big joke
that has occured to my life
mwahahaha
fine..im being lameee..teehee

Nadirah
Herda
Syakinah
Ain
Nadia
Zu
Ali
Sam
Irfan
Adam
Syaza
Elek

The list can go on and on
coz sooo many people
helped me up
and pushed me
to walk again
no matter how little or a lot
of help uve given
i appreciate every little things
that u guyz have done for me

i fall
again and again
coz memories of the past
keep coming back
and yet
these people
help me
over and over again
so i really thank u guys
frm the bottom of my heart
i wont
dissapoint u guys
inysAllah