Monday, January 19, 2009

Skipped school =(

Im suppose to be in sch now
yeah, i know..
but i just cant get up frm the bed
i just wanted to stay in bed
I feel sick
I feel restless
i donno..
I thought
that when i sleep
all my sadness and worries will be gone

it didnt go away though
After haunting me everyday
i even have dreams abt him now
its so scary..
coz all the more i try to forget him
the more he comes into my mind
The more i said i shld smile
the more i would cry
am i goin mad
i hope not
dunt think KW will appreciate a mad pesilat aniway..

im just afraid to go out
n meet the world...
i donno if i can smile
i donno if i cant take the pressure
actually
im lying
i know
that when i go out there
i'll be fine
except that
there'd be times
where i'd just break down
alone
i dun wanna burden anyone else
with the sadness
that ive brought upon myself
sigh...
how am i
suppose to move on
so abruptly...

jangan dekat atau
jangan datang kepadaku lagi
aku semakin tersiksa
karena tak memilikimu

ku coba jalani hari
dengan mengganti dirimu
tapi hatiku selalu
berpihak lagi padamu

mengapa semua ini
terjadi kepadaku

Tuhan maafkan diri ini
Yang tak pernah bisa
Menjauh dari angan tentangnya

namun apalah daya ini
bila ternyata sesungguhnya
aku terlalu cinta
dia

Well...guess i gotta go and freshen up now
ciow people

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